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  Borrowed Dreams is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  2014 Debbie Macomber eBook Edition

  Copyright © 1985 by Debbie Macomber

  “The World of Debbie Macomber” by Kevin Weaver copyright © 2014 by Random House LLC Excerpt from The Inn at Rose Harbor by Debbie Macomber copyright © 2012 by Debbie Macomber

  All rights reserved.

  Published in the United States by Debbie Macomber Books, an imprint of Debbie Macomber, Inc.

  Distributed by Random House LLC.

  DEBBIE MACOMBER BOOKS is a registered trademark of Debbie Macomber, Inc.

  Originally published in paperback in the United States by Silhouette Books, New York, in 1985.

  eBook ISBN 978-1-941824-04-7

  www.debbiemacomber.com

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  Dear Friends,

  One of the questions readers often ask is what inspires a certain story. You’ll be surprised to know that the idea for Borrowed Dreams came from a Barbra Streisand song. I remember humming along to the song “Second Hand Rose” and thinking of my father. My dad was the youngest boy in a family of eight. He wore hand-me-down clothes his entire childhood. One of the big moments of his life came when he was able to purchase a brand-new suit, which he paid for with his own money.

  It didn’t take long before the song and my dad’s childhood stories captured my writer’s imagination. Borrowed Dreams is the result. I wrote the book early in my writing career. Because of the technological changes since the original publication, I’ve refreshed the stories so they are slightly changed.

  Feedback from my readers has guided my career. I find your letters and notes highly informative and helpful. You can reach me any number of ways. Either by logging on to my website at DebbieMacomber.com and leaving me a message or by writing me at P.O. Box 1458, Port Orchard, WA 98366. You can also find me on Facebook.

  I hope you enjoy this story that is set in the beautiful state of Alaska and that you’ll have the opportunity to visit there yourself one day.

  Warmest regards,

  Debbie Macomber

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Author’s Note

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  The World of Debbie Macomber

  Excerpt from The Inn at Rose Harbor

  Chapter One

  “Don’t worry about a thing,” George Hamlyn stated casually on his way out the door.

  “Yes … but—” Carly Grieves interrupted. This was her first day on the job in Anchorage, Alaska, and she was hoping for a few more instructions. “But … what would you like me to do?”

  “Take any phone messages and straighten the place up a bit. That should keep you busy for the day.” He removed his faded cap and wiped his forearm across his wide brow as he paused just inside the open doorway.

  All day! Carly mused irritably. “What time should I expect you back?”

  “Not until afternoon at the earliest. I’m late now.” His voice was tinged with impatience. “A couple of drivers will be checking in soon. They have their instructions.”

  Fleetingly, Carly wondered if their orders were as vague as her own.

  “See you later.” George tossed her a half-smile and was out the door before she could form another protest.

  Carly dropped both hands lifelessly to her sides in frustrated displeasure. How could George possibly expect her to manage the entire office on her own? But, apparently, he did just that. On her first day, no less. With only a minimum of instruction, she was to take over the management of Alaska Freight Forwarding in her employer’s absence.

  “Didn’t Diana warn you this would happen?” She spoke out loud, standing in the middle of the room, feeling hopelessly inadequate. Good heavens, what had she gotten herself into with this job?

  Hands on hips, Carly surveyed the room’s messy interior. George had explained, apologetically, that his last traffic supervisor had left three months ago. One look at the office confirmed his statement. She couldn’t help wonder how anyone could run a profitable business in such chaos. The long counter was covered with order forms and a variety of correspondence, some stained with dried coffee; the ashtray that sat at one end was filled to overflowing. Cardboard boxes littered the floor, some stacked as high as the ceiling. The two desks were a disaster; a second full ashtray rested in the center of hers, on top of stacked papers, and empty coffee mugs dotted its once polished wood surface. The air was heavy with the smell of stale tobacco.

  Forcefully expelling an uneven sigh, Carly paused and wound a strand of rich brown hair around her ear.

  Straighten the place up a bit! Her mind mimicked George’s words. She hadn’t come all the way from Seattle to clean offices. Her title was traffic supervisor, not janitor!

  Annoyed with herself for letting George walk all over her, Carly got her desk in reasonable order and straightened the papers on the counter. She grimaced as she examined the inside of the coffeepot. It looked like someone had dumped chocolate syrup in it. She guessed it had never been washed.

  When the phone rang, she answered in a brisk, professional tone. “Alaska Freight Forwarding.”

  A short hesitation followed. “Who’s this?”

  Squaring her shoulders, she replied crisply, “Carly Grieves. May I ask who’s calling?”

  The man at the other end of the line ignored the question. “Let me talk to George.”

  It seemed no one in Alaska had manners. “George is out for the day. May I ask who’s calling?”

  Whoever was on the line let out a curse.

  “I beg your pardon?”

  “When do you expect him back?”

  “Well, Mr. Blanky Blank, I can’t rightly say.”

  “I’ll be there in ten minutes.” With that, he abruptly severed their connection.

  Sighing, Carly replaced the receiver. Apparently Mr. Blanky Blank thought she could tell him something more in person.

  A few minutes later, the door burst open and a man as lean and serious as an arctic wolf strode briskly inside and stopped just short of the counter. Dark flecks sparked with interest in eyes that were wide and deeply set. He was dressed in a faded jean jacket and worn jeans, and his Western-style, checkered shirt was open at the throat to reveal a broad chest with a sprinkling of curly, dark hair.

  “Carly Grieves?” he questioned as his mouth quirked into a coaxing smile.

  “Mr. Blanky Blank?” she returned, and smiled. His lean face was tanned from exposure to the elements. The dark, wind-tossed hair was indifferent to any style. This man was earthy and perhaps a little wild—the kind of wild that immediately gave women the desire to tame. Carly was no exception.

  “Brand St. Clair,” he murmured, his friendly eyes not leaving hers as he extended his hand.

  Her own much smaller hand was enveloped in his calloused, roughened one. “I’m taking a truck,” he announced without preamble.

  “You’re what?” Carly blinked.

  “I haven’t got time to explain. Tell George I was by—he’ll understand.”

  “I can’t let you do that … I don’t thi
nk …” Carly stammered, not knowing what to do. Brand St. Clair wasn’t on the clipboard that listed Alaska Freight Forwarding employees. What if one of the men from the warehouse needed a truck later? She didn’t know this man. True, he was strikingly attractive, but he’d undoubtedly used that to his advantage more than once. “I can’t let you do that,” she decided firmly, her voice gaining strength.

  Brand smiled, but the amusement didn’t touch his dusky, dark eyes. Despite the casual way he was leaning against the counter, Carly recognized that he was tense and alert. The thought came that this man was deceptive. For all his good looks and charming smile, it could be unwise to cross him.

  “I apologize if this is inconvenient,” she began, and clasped her hands together with determination. “But I’ve only just started this job. I don’t know you. I don’t know if George Hamlyn is in the habit of lending out his trucks, and furthermore—”

  “I’ll accept full responsibility.” He took his wallet from his back hip pocket and withdrew a business card, handing it to her.

  Carly read the small print. Brand was a pilot who freelanced his services to freight operators.

  “A hiker in Denali Park has been injured,” he explained shortly. “I’m meeting the park rangers and airlifting him to British Columbia.” The impatient way he spoke told Carly he wasn’t accustomed to making explanations.

  “I … I …” Carly paused, uncertain.

  “Do I get the truck or not?”

  She unclenched and clenched her fist again. “All right,” she finally conceded, and handed over the set of keys.

  He gave her a brief salute and was out the door.

  She stood at the wide front window that faced the street and watched as Brand backed the pickup truck onto the road, changed gears, and sped out of sight. Shrugging one shoulder, she arched two delicate brows expressively. Life in the north could certainly be unnerving.

  “A pilot,” she murmured. Flying was something that had intrigued her from childhood. The idea of soaring thousands of feet above the earth with only a humming engine keeping her aloft produced a thrill of adventure. Carly wondered fleetingly if she’d get the opportunity to learn to fly while in Alaska.

  She paused, continuing to stand at the window. Her attraction to the rugged stranger surprised her. She preferred her men tame and uncomplicated, but Brand St. Clair had aroused her curiosity. She couldn’t put her finger on what it was now, but it felt as real and intense as anything she’d ever experienced. He exuded an animal magnetism. She’d been exposed to those male qualities a hundred times and had walked away yawning. Whatever it was about him, Carly was intrigued. She found she was affected by their short encounter. She stood looking out the office window, watching the road long after the truck was out of sight.

  Once the Formica counter was cleaned, the orders piled in neat stacks, and the boxes pushed to one side of the office, Carly took a short break. The phone rang several times and Carly wrote down the messages dutifully, placing them on George’s desk. A warehouse man came in and introduced himself before lunch, but was gone before Carly could question him about the truck Brand St. Clair had taken.

  With time on her hands, the afternoon dragged, and Carly busied herself by sorting through the filing cabinets. If the office was in disarray, it was nothing compared to the haphazard methods George Hamlyn employed for filing.

  When George sauntered in around five he stopped in the doorway and glanced around before giving Carly an approving nod.

  “I’d like to talk to you a minute,” she said stiffly. She wasn’t above admitting she’d made a mistake by moving to Alaska. She could cut her losses and head back to Seattle. If he needed someone to clean house, she wasn’t it.

  “Sure.” He shrugged and sat down at his desk. Although George possessed a full head of white hair, he didn’t look more than fifty. Guessing his age was difficult. George’s eyes sparkled with life and vitality. “What can I do for you?” he asked as he rolled back his chair and casually rested an ankle on top of his knee.

  Carly remained standing. “First off, I’m a freight traffic supervisor. I didn’t cart everything I own thousands of miles to clean your coffeepot or anything else.”

  “That’s fine.” George’s smile was absent as he shuffled through the phone messages. “Contact a janitorial service. I’ve been meaning to do that myself.”

  His assurance took some of the steam from her anger. “And another thing. Brand St. Clair was in and took … borrowed a truck. He said it was an emergency and I wasn’t sure if I should’ve stopped him.”

  “No problem.” George glanced up, looking mildly surprised. His thoughts seemed to have drifted a thousand miles from her indignation. “One of these days that boy will come to his senses and give it up.”

  “ ‘Give it up’?” Carly repeated, amused that she’d verbalized the thought.

  George nodded, then set the mail aside. “I’ve been after Brand to join up with us. He’s a good pilot.” His eyes moved to Carly and he lifted one shoulder in an indifferent shrug. “Not likely, though, with all those medical bills he’s paying off. He can earn twice the money freelancing.”

  “Medical bills?” Carly asked, curious find out what she could about the man.

  George appeared not to have heard her question. “Any other problems?”

  “Not really.”

  He shook his head, his eyes drifting to the stack of mail. “I’ll see you in the morning, then.”

  There was no mistaking the dismissal in his tone. Already he had turned his attention to the desk.

  Carly left the office shortly afterward, wondering how much longer George would be staying. The man was apparently married to his job. There was little evidence in the office that he had a wife and family. And the hours he seemed to keep would prohibit any kind of life outside the company.

  * * *

  The apartment Carly had rented on Weimer Drive was a plain one-bedroom place that was barely large enough to hold all her furniture. Some of her things were being shipped from Seattle and wouldn’t arrive for another month. Diana—dear, sweet Diana—couldn’t believe that Carly would give up a good job in comfortable surroundings on the basis of a few phone conversations with George Hamlyn from the parent company. Her friend was convinced Carly was running. But she wasn’t. Alaska offered adventure, and she’d been ready for a change.

  Hugging her legs, her chin resting on her bent knees, Carly sat on the modern, overstuffed sofa in her new living room. She hadn’t expected to find Alaska so beautiful. The subtle elegance, the immensity had enthralled her. Barren and dingy was what she’d been told to expect. Instead, she found the air crisp and clean. The skies were as blue as the Caribbean Sea. This state was so vast it was like a mother with her arms opened wide to lovingly bring the lost into her warm embrace.

  “A mother …” Carly smiled absently.

  * * *

  The nightmare returned that night. For years she’d been free of the terror that gripped her in the dark void of sleep, but that night she woke in a cold sweat, sitting up in bed and trembling. Perspiration dotted her face, and she took several deep, calming breaths. The dream was so vivid. So real. What had brought back the childhood nightmare? Why now, after all these years?

  As she laid her head against the pillow and closed her eyes, Carly attempted to form a mental image of her mother. Nothing came but a stilted picture of the tall, dark-haired stranger in the photo Carly had carried with her from foster home to foster home.

  * * *

  She woke the following morning feeling as if she hadn’t slept all night. After the nightmare her sleep had been fitful, intermittent. Dark images played on the edges of her consciousness, shadows leaping out at her, wanting to engulf her in their dusk. Half of her yearned to surrender to the black void that beckoned, while the other half feared what she would discover if she ventured inside.

  Brand St. Clair was sitting on the corner of her desk, one foot dangling over the edge, when Carly walk
ed into the office later that morning.

  “Morning.” His greeting was casual.

  “Hi.” Carly’s response was equally carefree. “Come to borrow another truck?”

  “No. I thought I’d bring you coffee and a Danish as a peace offering.”

  Her gaze went to the white sack in the center of the desk. “That wasn’t necessary.”

  He opened the sack and took out a foam cup, removing the plastic lid before handing it to her.

  “Thanks.”

  Brand removed a second cup for himself. “I don’t suppose you do any bookkeeping on the side?”

  The question took her by surprise. “My dear Mr. St. Clair, I am a traffic supervisor, not an accountant.” A thin thread of humorous sarcasm ran through her voice. “I haven’t studied bookkeeping since high school.”

  Amusement flashed across his handsome features. “I’d be willing to pay you to take a look at my books. The whole accounting system is beyond me.”

  “You’re serious, aren’t you?”

  He smiled. Carly studied him and speculated that the crow’s-feet weren’t from smiling.

  “I couldn’t mean it more.”

  Carly took the chair and crossed her long legs, hoping he’d notice her designer nylons with their tiny blue stars. “Unfortunately, I’ve only had a few courses in bookkeeping. I’d only make matters worse.” Dear heavens, Carly mused, stifling a laugh. She was flirting. Blatantly flirting! She hadn’t done anything so outrageous in years. Her first impression of Brand yesterday was accurate. He was a wolf, all right, and more sensual than just about any man she knew. She guessed there was more to him than met the eye—and her response to him proved that there was more to her than she’d realized.

  Whistling, George sauntered into the office, carrying a steaming mug in one hand.

  “Good morning,” he greeted in a cheery singsong voice. He seemed surprised to see Brand. “Good to see you, St. Clair. How did everything go yesterday?”

  The glance Brand threw to Carly was decidedly uncomfortable. “Fine.” The lone word was clipped and impatient.